secret crush

This week ive been spending more time with her. I have decided that i need to ask her how she feels about me before this week is up.I spent all second period with her today we walked around the gym im still trying to get to know her more than i do now. I want to know everything about her. Im in love with her but i dont know much about her i know it sounds crazy but thats how it is. Everytime we talk im happy she makes my worst days great. Her smile makes me melt. when she tells me something im always listining to her and her alone. When she looks at me my eyes are frozen on hers. i wanted to ask her in gym today how she felt about me but i couldnt get up the nerve. I found myself looking at her when she wasnt paying attention i try to stop myself but i just cant resist. When she asks me to do something for some reason i always obey without question. I cant stand to see her sad because somehow i can feel her sadness when shes sad. My concionce naggs me to do something to cheer her up. When someone makes fun of her i get so protective of her and i dont even notice. When we was walking in the gym i would find myself gettting closer and closer to her. Is it possable to love someone even if you dont know them? I ask myself this everyday and i come up with the same answer. I dont know.

secret crush

This weekend I started to text my friend shes a senior now. There has always been something diffrent between her and the other girls I know. She shows me things about myself I never knew. When im around her I get shy and quiet. My heart will race when she gets close to me. I tremble when she talks to me and when she touches me its like my nerves just go crazy and my hair stands on end. I told her this weekend that I have a crush on her and she said shes ok with it. I need to know if she feels the same about me that I do for her. Just hearing her voice makes me smile. when she smiles at me I melt inside. Today was like any other day I spent all of second period talking to her. Just being able to talk to her alone is wonderful for me. Im afraid to ask her how she feels about me cause im scared she will say no to my feelings. She had her bangs cut and her hair trimmed up today. I think she looks even greater now that I can see more of her face. In gym I kept catching myself just looking at her face. She says shes ugly and calls herself fat. But I think shes perfect in every way.  She wont show me her real personality but I dont care theres alot of things I dont let people see about the real me only she can know that. I never realy felt embarrased before I confessed that I had a crush on her but now every time she looks at me I either look away  or start blushing. She walked me to class today and when she left for her class I felt realy lonely. It hurts to know this is her last year at highschool and ill never  see her again. I wish I could just ask her how she feels about me. Even now shes on my mind. What is so diffrent about her that makes me feel this way. I hope one day she will show me the real her that she hides from everyone.

what did you do this weekend

this weekend i listned to music all day long.I downloaded alot of new music on my ipod. i now have over five hundred songs. i went to my grandmaws house.  i went to see my cuzin and my  aunt and uncle. next weekend im going to go to my dads. i played my xbox sunday all day.